Episode 4

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Now, to the Episode. I'm not going to go in order this time, I'm just going to list what comes to mind. My overall opinion is that this episode wasn't nearly as "edited" and biased as the first episode. In fact, I think the editors treated me pretty fairly this episode, (with a few exceptions):

• The speed dating mistake: Why did I say what I said? The short explanation: I'm an idiot. The long explanation: I'm an iiiddiiiiiiooott. If there’s one thing I learned on the show, it’s that I hate karaoke. But if there’s a second thing I learned, it’s that when I screw up, I should just accept responsibility and apologize right away. Explaining will only make things worse. What do I really think about Tristin: Tristin is a sweetheart, and besides Cher, she was the smartest girl in the house.

• My main problem with this episode is that they didn't show my positive interactions with people in the mansion. Karl called me up a few days ago and told me he was upset. I asked why, and he said, "They didn't show the time you tried to teach me to play guitar." Karl is a really cool guy, and me and him got along really well. We talked a lot at the mansion, and we still do talk. I was pretty upset too, but I know how the show works. That interaction doesn't really fit into the villain image that the producers wanted for me. Also, Joe and I ran on the weekends. Well, Joe ran, I just struggled to keep up. Joe was in a lot better shape than I was. And after we ran, we just hung out and talked. Also, I did end up going into the hot tub, but only when I wasn't super-tired and/or studying for elimination. Josh and I had some "kindred spirit" moments too, times where we'd both feel the same way about something. And he'd make a comment, and I'd commiserate. For example, both Josh and I were going to die from anxiety before the karaoke competition. And, one thing they didn't even tape, was the van rides... girls were in one van, guys were in another. Us guys had a great time just joking around. On the ride over to the karaoke competition we sang every song we knew.

• My other problem with the editing was that I know I said some nice stuff about people, both to other cast members and in the interviews/confessionals, but none of it made it to the final show. I know I said nice things about Tristin, but all you see is my mistakes. I remember specifically saying that Tyson was very genuine and had a good heart, but that didn't make it in either.

• The makeover. The reason I put my head on Tristin's shoulder after Mike announced the challenge was that he said there was going to be waxing. When Tristin heard this, her eyes lit up like a Reggae band on April 2oth. I knew I was in for it. Although Tristin gave the orders, I gave the stylist some input too. During the makeover, I just told the hairstylist to do whatever she wanted, and that I trusted her judgement. She knows what kind of haircut works for my head. It took me a few days to realize that it looked good. The eyebrows was another story. I said the same thing to the aesthetician: "take off whatever you think is best. You're the expert on how eyebrows should look. But please, please bear in mind this one thing -- do not take off too much. Eyebrows should be manly. I do not want to look like the Gotti brothers." So she does her thing, and it looks good -- nice and cleaned up, and well balanced. I say, "Great job." Just then, one of the producers comes in and tells the aesthetician that the director wants her to take more off my eyebrows. He said I didn't look different enough. I was upset... I didn't want the director deciding how my eyebrows should be waxed. What does he know about it?

• The rest of speed dating: The "prostitution" commentary... We were at a restaurant called "the Geisha House." And I had taken a history class on the subject of prostitution. I thought it was fair game for conversation. Anyways, I think the girls we "dated" were pretty cold. I'm not Dave Chappelle, but I said a few funny things and I got no love in return. Oh, I was glad they showed that I was a psych major.

• I think we all kinda knew Wes was going to win. We were judged on three criteria, and one of them was appearance. Unless I did amazingly awesome, I was going to lose. I was kinda upset, because I didn't feel like I had a legitimate chance at winning the karaoke or the speed dating challenge. Also, Wes went before us, so he was the standard of comparison.

• Getting eliminated. I felt okay. It's funny, because if I had been eliminated any earlier, I would have felt crappy. First, I was feeling really bad about hurting Tristin's feelings. I made a comment on the show which summarizes how I felt: "Once I realized I screwed up with Tristin, I couldn't have cared less if they sent me to elminination room. I wasn't even thinking about that." Even though we had made up, I still felt emotionally drained. Also, I didn't feel bad about elimination because Tristin and I had already survived two trips to the elimination room. And Josh and Cher got all their questions right. When I got home, I looked up Cher on the internet and found out that she was a genius. Plus, there's a certain element of luck in there. I knew both of Josh's questions, but I didn't get those questions. So I didn't feel so bad... what could we do?

• I didn't blame Wes. I would have picked the same two couples if I were in his shoes.

• Lastly, I'd like to apologize to Tristin publicly, for marring our exit video with clips of me flexing. To the editors: That was a cheap shot. No need to cut pictures of my scrawny body into our goodbye montage.

• Okay, one more thing. We filmed this before the marketing for the film, Casanova, started.

• Alright, one more thing: People keep asking what I learned from the experience. It’s not about what I learned, it’s about how I grew. I grew as a person, because I’ve become stronger and more sensitive all at the same time. Just imagine how much you would grow if you were put in a strange environment, with fifteen strangers, being watched by 5 million people, all the while competing for 100 grand. Us geeks are good at learning, and a lot of us know who we want to be. The show helps us to become that person.

Overall, I felt like the first few episodes were really skewed, and this, by comparison, gave a somewhat fair portrayal of the events and people involved.